I really do, I miss it a lot. This past season of So You Think You Can Dance was hard on me (insert laughter here). Seriously, it made me miss dancing so bad. I remember on one episode one of the judges said "Dancing is my drug of choice and I just can't get enough"...I thought "That's me!".
I started dancing when I was around 3 years old. You know, the typical toddler in ballet and tap. I had a horrible dance 'Madame' that scared the crap out of me (I think all dance teachers are required to be mean). Even with that, I was hooked!
However, my parent's got divorced and my mom couldn't afford to keep me in dance class any longer...so dance and I parted ways.
Twenty years later, I decided that I was done 'watching' dance, I wanted to do it! I wanted to be the dancer not the audience. I was an RD at Simpson at the time and my schedule was flexible enough that it allowed me to go to some ballet and tap classes at Shasta college. I LOVED IT!!! I danced as much as I had time for and could afford. Even after I got pregnant with Judah, I danced as long as my body would let me. It was a riot trying to do pirouettes with a big 'ol belly.
After Judah was born I went back to ballet because I had a goal...pointe shoes! I knew that more than anything I wanted to give pointe shoes a shot. It requires A LOT of discipline and hard work but I was determined. I didn't just want to dance in class with pointe shoes either, I wanted to perform. And I did! In June of 2006 I dance in Cinderella at the Redding Convention Center. But after that I quit...I just didn't have the money or the energy to keep up with all the classes needed to maintain the strength and skill for pointe work.
Lately, I find myself dancing in my head as I listen to music. I can feel the desire to actually get up and dance creeping back in to my soul. It's so weird sometimes...I know that some people see in music or colors...I see in dance. Especially during worship at church. In my mind the whole song comes alive through movement.
Am I supposed to choreograph for worship or am I just longing to get back into class and let my body do what my brain and heart is wanting it to do so badly? I don't know...
This may seem nerd-bomber to some of you that have never danced. Hopefully my fellow dancers out there will understand ;).
What's a dancer to do....
