I really do, I miss it a lot. This past season of So You Think You Can Dance was hard on me (insert laughter here). Seriously, it made me miss dancing so bad. I remember on one episode one of the judges said "Dancing is my drug of choice and I just can't get enough"...I thought "That's me!".
I started dancing when I was around 3 years old. You know, the typical toddler in ballet and tap. I had a horrible dance 'Madame' that scared the crap out of me (I think all dance teachers are required to be mean). Even with that, I was hooked!
However, my parent's got divorced and my mom couldn't afford to keep me in dance class any longer...so dance and I parted ways.
Twenty years later, I decided that I was done 'watching' dance, I wanted to do it! I wanted to be the dancer not the audience. I was an RD at Simpson at the time and my schedule was flexible enough that it allowed me to go to some ballet and tap classes at Shasta college. I LOVED IT!!! I danced as much as I had time for and could afford. Even after I got pregnant with Judah, I danced as long as my body would let me. It was a riot trying to do pirouettes with a big 'ol belly.
After Judah was born I went back to ballet because I had a goal...pointe shoes! I knew that more than anything I wanted to give pointe shoes a shot. It requires A LOT of discipline and hard work but I was determined. I didn't just want to dance in class with pointe shoes either, I wanted to perform. And I did! In June of 2006 I dance in Cinderella at the Redding Convention Center. But after that I quit...I just didn't have the money or the energy to keep up with all the classes needed to maintain the strength and skill for pointe work.
Lately, I find myself dancing in my head as I listen to music. I can feel the desire to actually get up and dance creeping back in to my soul. It's so weird sometimes...I know that some people see in music or colors...I see in dance. Especially during worship at church. In my mind the whole song comes alive through movement.
Am I supposed to choreograph for worship or am I just longing to get back into class and let my body do what my brain and heart is wanting it to do so badly? I don't know...
This may seem nerd-bomber to some of you that have never danced. Hopefully my fellow dancers out there will understand ;).
What's a dancer to do....
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Thats really awesome! Go for it.....I can see it now...dance team on stage during worship.....Danielle: head choreographer (you might want to run it by nate first though)......
Yup, I totally understand. I always worship through dance in my head. I stopped dancing right before I got pregnant with Ruby and I'm thinking about going back, actually I'm trying a ballet class tomorrow night (you are welcome to join me - and don't worry, its soft shoe). I'm so nervous though, its been a while and I know my body is out of shape. But, I have to give it a try. If you end up finding a cheap dance class of any style, let me know, I'll be right there with you!
As a former dancer myself, I understand, too. I may have been only semi-talented, but there's something about expressing yourself in that way that just makes you come alive.
I hope you're able to find some way to live out that passion of yours! Even busy moms can pursue their dreams...
THis is what I love about blogs, I didn't know you loved to dance and it is so cool that I have found this out! Sometimes it is easy as moms to put off things we want to do, but I think you should keep on dancin' girl!
friend...you need to get your danc back on!
DANCE!
Ok, so here is my plan. Come down every weekend and we will find a dance studio where we can go to dance every weekend. I too looooove to dance. I have ALWAYS admired and been a bit jealous of your dream of going back and being in Cinderella. I am more of a tap girl....we could go on the road you and I, you do ballet and I will do tap...lets put it together and hit the road!
Hilarious, when I was in eigth grade I was the lead in The Velveteen Rabbit. Yes I was the little rabbit. Gray toe shoes and all. Some of the most intimate times I have had with the Lord I have been dancing. No not really dancing but dancing in my head. Then I will come back to this world as my kids need a snack. I finish up the dishes, turn off Josh Groban and get them some fishy crackers.
I have been meaning to tell you and Trisha....this was so exciting and wished I had my camera...Here in ol' Lancaster we have a theatre called The Fulton. They have always done really good performances, but in the past couple of years they have really brought in amazing talent from NY> This past show is Oklahoma. Well, apparently, Tyce from SYTYCD has really been trying to break into choreography for Broadway. So, he was brought in to choreograph Okalhoma for the Fulton. I volunteer at the Fulton so I was able to go for the "preview" night. The dancing was so good and had a definite modern flair....and lo and behold....who was in the audience...Tyce! Couldn't believe it.
Long story, but I immediately told Jeff, "I can't wait to tell Trisha and Danielle about this!"
Hope your dancing becomes a reality soon. Eden does ballet and I love to see how graceful she has become in just 3 years. She is at a tougher school now so I am anxious to see what this year holds for her!
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